My First Love

This week I was reflecting on my high school years and was shocked to find out that I really miss it. There was  the excitement of sports activities, musicals, friends around at all times, and always change, change, change.  You never new what crazy things were going to happen when you had 1,000 young people on one small campus. Remembering all those fun times, a dark cloud of depression settled in.  Why is my life so boring now? The desire of my heart was to be in full-time ministry and now that I am here it feels like I have no excitement and my days are filled with the mundane. I never thought serving the Lord could be like this.

With tears in my eyes and a heavy heart, I went to bed last night praying that things would change. “Lord, I just want change, excitement,  and adventure in many ways like it was in high school”  Through the night I had a dream. I don’t remember all of it but  there was a christian girl that I watched being drown for her faith in Jesus. I was the only witness other than the man doing it. But the incredible thing was that she would not drown and so the executioner pulled her up out of the water and let her live.  The girl and I went back to my house where many Christians had gathered to hear the incredible testimony of her drowning. That is so exciting!!!
Getting out of bed and grabbing  a cup of coffee I sat on my coach and started talking to the Lord about my dream.  He reminded me that the life He has for us as Christians is not boring or mundane.  All through the New Testament it describes the life of the apostles as anything but boring. They were raising people from the dead, healing the sick by just walking down the road and so much more.  They were sold out for Jesus because they knew who He was. My heart burned with the longing for that in my life. “But how Lord?” was the only question that came to the forefront of my mind. His answer was simple “Return to your first Love”

Recently I have let the things of this world bog me down.  Stress and weariness have strangled me and left me for dead. It didn’t seem like I could go on.  But the Love of God is still there drawing me back to the first times we used to have. There really is so much excitement in the life that I am supposed to be living. The apostles demonstrated that.  I want that life and that is only going to happen if I let the things of this world and flesh go and cling to Jesus. As He rubs off on me, my life will become more and more like His. As my heart is transformed into His heart, the love and compassion that He feels will pour through me and the longing for the dead to be raised, the mute speak, the blind see, and the lame walk will be part of who I am because that is what God’s heart is. Aligning my life with His life creates a conduit for His power to flow through me.

No boredom for those who are in Christ Jesus!

“And these signs shall follow them that believe; In my name shall they cast out devils; they shall speak with new tongues; They shall take up serpents; and if they drink any deadly thing, it shall not hurt them; they shall lay hands on the sick, and they shall recover.”(Mark 16: 17-18) Sounds like an exciting life to me. Let’s Go!

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